a special note for the little one

my youngest child,

your arrival will complete our little family.

i pray that you are blessed with good health + strength.

that while you’re in me, you’ll ignore my flaws, absorb my virtues.

may your life be graced with God’s many blessings.

may you be surrounded by good people + strong examples.

may you grow into a noble person;

fair + just + respectful to all, regardless of their circumstance.

remember that life has lessons to offer,

and no matter how bad, there’s always good in there.

may you always be close with your family,

+ come to us for comfort + tradition.

i hope that i’ll parent you well.

but if i stumble along the way, try not to judge me too harshly;

i too am learning life’s lessons.

i love you my child.

i’ll see you soon.

love, mom.

another boy in the family

yes, we've checked and yes, it's another boy for me.

during the check up (about 2 weeks ago), while i was lying down getting my tummy scanned, i noticed ava's expression changed. i thought she was having a poo-poo moment but quickly realized that it was jealousy.

i'm not sure if she was jealous cos the doctor was with me (she gets that way when her daddy sits too close to me) or if she realised we were checking baby out. in any case, after some cuddles, she was fine again.

other news, i bought myself a treadmill. in anticipation of the confinement period. my husband laughed but now he's getting excited about actually using it. of course he wasnt too pleased with my color choice --pink. but we're only using it indoors mah! i got the treadmill for cheap (only RM205) on groupon. since i'm not certain whether i'll ever ever ever use it, cos i have a history of not seeing through my exercise regimes, i figured buying a cheap one will lesson the sakit hati-ness of purchasing something and not using it. my intentions were noble ok --to have something for exercise, that doesnt take up too much space, thats not too expensive. so i hit all 3 objectives. now, lets see if i hit the MOTHER objective i.e. to actually exercise.

however, i would like to announce that i have been doing pregnancy yoga. well, i started yoga just before i found out i was pregnant, and after that, decided to carry on with it. of course, i hardly did any in the first trimester due to the nausea and fatigue. but as soon as i hit the second trimester, i began feeling better immediately and picked yoga up again. i'm still far from being consistent in my practices but i average about 2 times a week, now. which is much much much better than while i was pregnant with the first 2 kiddos.

i have to admit, i feel better. i ALSO have to admit that, perhaps because i am older now, i am a bit more worried about weight gain and looking like a blimp with this pregnancy, and thats probably the motivation behind doing the yoga and getting the treadmill. that and the fact that i began showing my pregnancy bump much earlier so much so that i cant fit into my regular clothes much earlier than expected.

keeping my fingers crossed that everything will go well for this pregnancy and that i will continue with some exercise (no matter how minimal).