moods

i cried watching an indonesian soap last week. i cried watching a hindi movie yesterday. i cried reading about people crying. i cried when the husband said he wasnt in the mood for christmas (although i have since enforced the everyone-must-have-christmas-mood-during-advent ruling in my household). i cry while im puking. i cry at night because of my rashes. i cry when i read about the state of politics in this country (stupid administration --hope you all pay for your political sins in hell).

in short. i like to cry these days.

oh ya, & i get worked up easily too. i mean my temper flares together with my nostrils.

last night, the husband said he would get me some kfc on the way back from work. well, although i knew he would only reach home at about 945pm - 10pm, for some reason, i got angry with him for not coming back with the kfc in time for dinner at about 8pm. bodos kan me? he ONLY finishes work at 9pm. & usually only leaves the office at 920pm cos he has to lock-up after everyone leaves for the day. so how could he have brought me dinner at 8pm?

oh by the way, the nausea is worsened when i dont eat i.e. when i'm hungry.

when he called me on the way home, i sulkingly told him "no need to get me the kfc now! who eats dinner at 10pm??" then when he got home, he was kind enough to offer to make me something to eat & i said "no need!" when he persevered i screamed "no need!!! i dowan!!! i cannot eat already now! & dont talk to me!!! i cannot talk!!! i feel like puking!! dont talk!!"

hehehe... poor thing kan. & when i ran to the toilet to puke, he dutifully came & rubbed my back.

this morning i apologized for being cranky.

recording my vitals

i shoulda done this earlier and i did but i wrote it down in my notebook instead.

at 4weeks preggers i was:

weight : 46kg
vital stats : 33 - 29 - 34
hair : short & colored
LMP : 14 to 18 oct 07

at 7 weeks preggers

weight : havent checked
vital stats : havent checked
hair : still short & colored but longer & duller now
other info : i hv a damn zit on my face

first check-up - damansara specialist center (dr guna)

ok so we went ahead to damansara specialist center for the first check-up with dr. gunasegaran. a really nice & posh hospital this. we were late, no surprises there. i was giving the house a good sweep before we left. anyways, the husband dropped me at the entrance so i could register while he parks. i met this girl i know who is a supa-dupa-richa-girl & it kinda made me a little nervous. come on, she owns a yacht and a major shopping mall in kl & i was thinking "giler babs, i hope this doctor doesnt cater mostly for millionairesses cos im not one."

anyways, the receptionist was such a fashionista. the 45minute wait was entertaining at least. i was busy checking out the other mums and their clothes haha. the husband brought my "everything about baby" book (its like the "idiots guide to first time parenting" kinda thing) -- so embarrassing. i left it in the car, & he brought it back out plaks. lucky i had a big handbag that day haha. shoved everything inside & made him carry it.

when it came to our turn, the dr guna asked me to lie down & he put that jelly-like thing on my tummy just above my pubic area, & showed us the sac in which the fetus is growing. we saw the baby's heart beating!! it was so exciting. i was really grinning. i thought i was gonna be all control-macho you know. like "hey, i've done this many times before." ya right. haha. the husband was also grinning from ear to ear. he claims that he could see the figure of the baby. me, i just saw... well... i just saw something. & the beating heart of course. eeeeeee!!! gelinya hatiku.

anyways, that was all of it. that was the WHOLE check-up. no pap smear, no blood test, no nothing. i think we were in there for like 5 minutes tops. sighs. we didnt even get a picture of the scan although i asked for it. the receptionist said they will compile everything into a CD and give it to me when im 22 weeks preggers. 22 weeks??? im only in my 7th week!!

a word of advice: dont go to this hospital. it is so frigging expensive.

doctor's consultation fee: rm150
scanning fee: rm100
supplements: rm40
registration fee: rm15

the up-side of course is that they're really gentle with you & that its close to where we live & we didnt have to queue for hours. sigh. so, due to the cost, we're gonna check out sjmc & pantai hospital where some friends claim that the doctors charge cheaper than damansara specialist center.

the husband says we should keep all the receipts so that if the child acts up when he/she is older, then we can show him/her the cost of his life. hihihi. so jahats hor. but funny.